urgencytobleed | Drink our tears, thirst for more. (Reply)

I've been kind of non-existent here lately, I know, at least compared to the rate that I used to post, but here's a little something to make up for that. I've been wanting to make a new mix lately but had absolutely no ideas for it. Between that and trying to think of something - anything! - to post about, this one was born. The seed was planted last night when my Zune decided to play me "Get Big" and "Warrior" back-to-back and I thought it sounded quite nice, so then I kept thinking about other songs that would work with those two. There is really no hugely obvious theme this time... I guess just that all of the songs are kind of dark and moody and sad, different aspects of depressing, I suppose. And basically I just think they all sound good together and they're mostly songs that I've been obsessed with lately. I think there are only two that I've posted previously, so that's a plus. And I just have to say, I'm the kind of person who feels like it's wasteful to not use the entire 80 minutes of a blank CD, so it was extremely hard for me not to try and fill up the last twenty or so that remain with this. But there are really no other songs I felt the need to add and I was afraid that any half-hearted inclusions would disrupt the entire thing, so I left it be. Also, there is really no reason for the two parts, just me being pretentious, I guess. (And yes, I realize that Orenda Fink is technically on the CD three times which I generally try not to do but whatever...)

Part I:

Now It's Overhead - With a Subtle Look

You fill my head and weigh it down
My clouded heavy vision sees
Your arms, once mine, now wrapped around
A different boy who looks like me

Orenda Fink - No Evolution

I put my face to the glass
But it's you that stares back
I had changed it once before
But that didn't change things

The Good Life - The Competition

I'll stay if you want
But I could never be who you imagine me to be
I'll stay, I don't know what else to do
But I can't change for you
I won't change for you

Carissa's Wierd - Low Budget Slow Motion Soundtrack Song for the Leaving Scene

How long will you be gone?
How soon 'til you come home?
Where is your sweetheart?
Who shelters her from the cold now?
Absence only made our hearts grow colder
I will be waiting, I'll just keep waiting for you

My Brightest Diamond - The Robin's Jar

With the world pressing in on her backyard, she fell in backwards
We prayed to God above that he'd bring her back to us
So we put her in a box and waited for something to happen
But nothing happened and mama made me bury her

The Action Design - Could, Not Should

This New Year
My resolution will hold
I'm going to take my sledgehammer
I'm going to break the mold

Bat for Lashes - Bat's Mouth

The caves of our mouths are bear's bellies
And the air in between is spewing comets
And the dancing centaur queen flies past
Her tiny tiny teeth and he is kind
She is free and wants to show him

Interlude:

Sarah Slean - Dark Room

"the wind's terrible symphony tore out my longing by the toes
my ears were emptied and renamed,
the balm slid off like a bubble of oil and
died pitifully under the choirmaster's heel
i was gutted and clinging on like a dish rag -

but so on fire with believing

that when the storm introduced itself

i put my finger in its mouth"

Part II:

Amanda Palmer - Straight

There is a voice on the phone who's convinced I'm alone
And I've called 'cause I'm greedy and looking for sympathy
He seems to like me but I can't relate
I would like to get closer but Christ, all the time it takes

Cake Bake Betty - Eleanor

Oh my precious demon darlings
Come to hold me, death unfold me
Color move me to the chambers
Where I know I'll feel alive
Dance in circles atop grasses
Crossing over lo, behold her
In the places of our reaches
Where the beasts upset their lives

Azure Ray - We Are Mice

We walk this earth somnambulant kin
With broken hearts that cannot mend
Losers first and second men
We'll do our best to blend in

Okkervil River - Get Big

"And I can't say why each day
Doesn't quite fit the space we saved for it"
But if that space now demands
That you throw up both your hands, that you call it quits...

Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Warrior

The river, it spoke to me
It told me I'm small
And I swallowed it down
If I make it at all
I'll make you want me

Stars - Personal

Reply to single m: My name is Caroline
Cell phone number here, call if you have the time
Twenty-eight and bored, grieving over loss
Sorry to be heavy but heavy is the cost